i always tell myself that God will be w me .
but somehow , i'd neglected him .
and i scold vulgarities every single day .
im afraid that jovi wont even recog and know me anymore ,
crystal wont understand me anymore ,
i wont laugh like crazy w cinthya anymore .
i wont be horny , i wont be hyper , i wont be HAPPY EVER AGN !
wut if after june hols , ppl dont recog me , ppl find me quiet , ppl dw me anymore ?!
wut if i cry myself to sleep everyday , sleep in class every sec ?!
haiz . im crazy . seriously .
i feel like a bitch . yeah fine i am .
im a hongster too . a retard . a ...... bad friend .
yeah people , sorry if i become like some super bitchy girl ..
accept me for th way i am .
when i enter tk , i was like super guai la .
look at my face , my specs . no fringe .
i v innocent and quiet one lor !
then i cut fringe ^^
look at my smile . i changed th way i smiled too .
look like frog tho -.- i finally understand why my auntie say i look like frog ,
i was still guai . still innocent .
but i thought i had a sad life cos no one likes me . ( too ugly )
quite dumb anyway . now its th other way round . ahem . not boasting btw -.-
fringe grew longer .
i startedto cut myself -.- LOL . bleed like crazy .
i cut until to blood drip onto th table .
was quite shiok anyway !
i kinda turn emo huh babeh .
until here uh , alot of probs alr .
frenship , fam , church . too immature huh .
but yeah . i thought i da jie da last time . i think ?
forgot bout th past alr .
dk why . nov i look sooo much better !
heh ;D not bad eh !
but i v bitchy ^^ yessah !
im a bitch LOL . (Y)
HAHAHA .
change alot agn ehh ! not bad not bad hahah ;D
but still ugly la . somehow . tho i zilian alot -.-
this is dec !
THEN HERE'S TH BIG BIG BIG CHANGE .
SEC TWOOOOOOO .
i say .. ni hao . my name is joeann . ppl call me chao ah lian .
they think im one . ppl say i short skirt long blouse .
im not happy w th name but i gotta live w it .
then more ppl call me chao ah lian . roars .
WA MM SI CHAO AH LIAN .
even if i am uh , i'll be a XIANG AH LIAN .
but obv im not . i became hongster also la . but i love th middle pic .
reminds me of him ;D
then become like that .
emo kia . crazy girl . hong many ppl .
who ask them like me . HAHAHA .
nah , is my fault :/
k w/e . i hated life . feel like a damn bitch ! heh .
who cares . i suck (N)
w/e .
like me not , you decide .
im not chao ah lian , imma guai kia (Y)
ilove everyone except for some ;D
kkayy , im nice . seeya . make frens w me !
but pls . DONT EVER LIKE ME . I HAD ENOUGH !
